I am full of hope every time I open my email to see if there are any freelancing work I can bid on. The truth is I bid on 100 and I might get one, I guess these are the odds when you freelance. I still have to pay my bills, I tried every avenue, at 54 you are treated as if you got oodles of savings and your not even in the race. I am a real paint and brushes artist, my craft was hard won, not some fancy software. I refuse to be beaten by a system that tries to dismiss true draughtsmanship as opposed to photoshopping. To be honest, I use photoshop, corel, 3dmax and other programs as AID to my work, yeah I guess you can make Mona Lisa dance but none of these tools can make you an artist. Only the true artist no matter what the tools can create something truly new. Painting is a discipline that requires time, something the modern world tells us we are running out of. I am not out of step with the current trends, I create my own trends that are light years beyond what the mass media try to pump into our heads.
True artists are outsiders, only to be found many years after their departure as something special, Picasso had to declare his uniqueness with the force of his temperament before everybody took notice, where Van Gogh found his vision in relative obscurity. Mr Warhol capitalized on Americans love of kitschy images only to cash in and create an industry of misguided pop artists that is now the norm for commercial art.
If poverty is a reflection of great art then there are very few real artists in this society. The balance must be reset so real artists can create great works without becoming a salesman of kitsch and a whore of the inane mind polluted money machine moguls.
Now that I got that of my chest, anybody interested in commissioning me for an artwork.